Oh man.
Life gets so crazy, so fast!
To catch people up, I am moving back to Cedar Falls.
On November 30th (After I drop my brother off at the airport)
I have a job & housing lined up! (Thanks big G) :]
My brother is home for a month.
It has been interesting to have him around again.
Very strange.
My little sister is 13 now.
What?!
Who allowed that to happen?
And in the midst of this,
I've maintained to be selfish as ever,
Lacking in my discipline.
And generally ignoring Jesus.
It's been....... interesting.
Why is it when things are going great,
We forget (or ignore) who made it so?
I once heard someone talk about the fact,
That 3rd world countries are more spiritual,
Because they must rely on their faith,
To meet basic needs.
I want to blatantly say....
I haven't been doing it.
Man. Why is so much easier to fake it.
Fake being faithful,
Or even faking feelings.
Why is it easier to manipulate,
Then tell the truth & pony up?
Because that would take effort.
Sacrifice, Humility & Discipline.
And who wants that....
I do. I truly do.
But I've been SO lazy lately.
There have been incredible things that God has done.
I say thanks & move on.
Not taking a second to think of how blessed I am.
Or taking the amount of time God deserves,
To worship him with all of me.
I have been worshiping, just not nearly enough.
And society tells me it's okay,
Because I've been so busy.
I stand to say,
It's NOT alright to neglect an all loving God.
Who sacrificed His son.
So we can live in such sweet relationship with him.
Sometimes I feel like such a phony,
When I think about how big God's love & forgiveness is,
And that I'm called to do the same.
I can say I'm dealing with stuff, people, & emotions.
Admitting it is easy.
It's the actually dealing with & pushing through, that is the issue.
So from here,
I pray.
Pray for forgiveness for being such a jerk.
Pray for grace for the times I fail.
Pray for perseverance when I feel like I can't do it.
Because I'm not doing any of this alone.
None of us are.
There is a love so sweet,
That all of this is just wiped away if we ask Him.
Well I"m asking.
Are you?
Go with love.
