Education.

So, life is really enriching lately.
Alot of learning is taking place & I really love it.
Lent started, and thus 40 days of a commitment.
It's super exciting. Take you out of your usual,
Makes you a little uncomfortable. But overall,
Brings you closer to Jesus.
It's pretty sweet.

As far as life goes,
This week I'm getting into the swing of having full time hours.
To my excitement, I got Rookie of the month
& I was asked to do the cleaning at work.
Which means more hours & money. :]
So of course I accepted.
I really LOVE my job!

I have also been reading ALOT.
Which is really nice.
I can't remember the last time I actually finished a book.
In the month of February I've ready two short books.
-Just Who Will I Be? by Maria Shriver
-The Diving Bell & the Butterfly by Jean-Dominique Bauby
Both of which were FANTASTIC!

Just Who Will I Be? was really good to read, where I'm at in life right now.
What I drew from it was that it's not WHAT you are.
Or WHAT you do.
It's about WHO you are, while you are doing whatever you're doing.

The Diving Bell & the Butterfly was completely different.
It is a book litterally written by a man who had a stroke
& is a victim of 'locked in syndrome' (click on for a link to what it is)
The author of the book could only function his left eye.
His speech therapist made a system that he would blink through the alphabet to communicate.
That is how he wrote the entire book.
It is an incredibly inspiring book.
I would recommend it to anyone.

Anyways that's all for me.
With Love.

Loving.

It's hard to fight the fact sometimes, you've become the person you swore you'd never be.
Someone who is prideful, selfish, & defensive.
I've become that person over an extended period of time. I don't know how. But I did.
And I'm the only one to blame. I'm not proud of that at all.
I felt it flare up before I moved to Green Bay, then it peaked there, it has plateaued there.
This is not the person God designed me to be. I am trying to change.
But... You can only get so far without letting God help you.
It doesn't matter how much advice your friends and family give you, if you don't let it sink in.
It will change. I will have to be patient with myself, and everyone else during the process.
It means, getting broke down once again, to become whole.

Honestly, I can't wait.
I know it will be uncomfortable, maybe even painful.
It's never fun becoming humbled.
But it's time to get my big girl panties on and deal with it.
You can only get so far by not accepting the truth.
I'm embracing it.
And God's truth that I can change.
And I will change if I ask Him to.
Well here goes.
I'm asking.

All of this doesn't mean I'm not still completely optimistic.
I still totally am. I am still positive.

I appreciate my parents and friends being patient with me.
And taking the time to teach me, and feed me,
And love me.

I am truly blessed.

I love you all. ♥

Updates.

It is already February, which means, on the 3rd, I will have lived back in Monticello for a full month.
Where has the time gone?! To be honest, it has been really fulfilling to have moved back in with my parents, though it was difficult to leave Green Bay.
My life has honestly changed ALOT, most of which has been affected by the guidance of my parents. They have been so good to me.
Even though I'm 19, and I haven't been the best to them.
They have dealt well with my attitude, and have loved me so much.
I am sooooo blessed to have gotten such incredible parents.

I know I haven't been the best at keeping in contact, so I figured this might be a bit easier to help bridge that gap I've been doing a poor job at filling.

Here are some updates.

#1 The first two weeks I got to see my twin brother, and hang out with him. It was AMAZING.
He helped cart me around to job interviews and help motivate me when I was feeling discouraged. My parents also helped in this endeavor
#2 I got a job! I work for a company called RuffaloCody. I call high school students and do surveys for colleges with them . It's pretty awesome. :]
#3 My van is working again thanks to my aunt & cousin. My parents towed it down on a U-Haul trailer and got it to Iowa. Also, they are helping buy me 2 new tires.
#4 I found some friends. They are lovely people, most of which I meet at work, but we've hung out a couple of times and it's proved to be fruitful.
#5 I'm working on eliminating the debt I've made for myself. My parents have helped me tremendously with budgeting help, and how to work with people. Did I mention how blessed I am to have them?!
#6 I've regained my status as big sister, which I LOVE.

I think that's the biggest updates in my life.
Jesus is so faithful, even though I have been so unfaithful to Him.
:] thank goodness.
be blessed.