Finally, it feels like my world might is in a healthy balance.
Finally, I am TRULY trusting God.
Finally, I am living my life.
Dang, Dang.
Why is it we struggle & struggle,
fighting with God, ourselves, & everyone around us.
Until we are so tired that we don't want to move.
Or feel, or make progress, for fear it will be so painful,
That we just stop?
For myself, I did so for the past couple of years.
Burning people as I go.
Saying I'm listening, but convinced in my own head,
That I am right, and I am doing things the right way.
Ha ha ha.
Obviously that worked for me.
But, we have a faithful God.
Who no matter how prideful, or angry,
or loveless, or unforgiving we are,
He will take us back.
My life as of late (6 months)
Has been challenging.
Spiritually, physically, mentally, & emotionally.
But, at the spot I am currently at,
I feel like I'm worlds away from where I have been before.
Some updates:
Home life: I moved out of my parents on June 1st.
I moved into my own apartment.
Alone. With no internet. Or cable.
& It feels incredible. I can focus on God & reading.
I feel like life is less complicated.
It is a beautiful thing I am going through.
Being grown up.
My parents are incredible too.
With their grace, for my inconsiderate self.
Job life: I currently have 3 jobs,
Soon to be 2. I work at RuffaloCODY as a janitor for 4 hours a week.
At Subway as a sandwich artist.
At Systems Unlimited as a "counselor" for people with special needs.
Subway isn't working out the hottest.
So at first it was a rash decision, but then decided that I should pray about it.
I prayed and prayed, & I believe that I am supposed to quit.
On May 3rd I started at Systems Unlimited.
I get to help people with special needs.
The company is fantastic.
They are about making people independent.
Not just doing it for them.
I am blessed with the new people in my life.
Staff & the individuals.
Oh man. I love it.
School life: YES! School life.
For those of you who don't know,
I got accepted to Bethany College of Missions.
(Check it out here)
I will be going for my A.A. in Global Ministry.
I don't know when I'm going.
I'm currently praying on it.
I am thinking at the earliest January 2011,
At the latest, August 2011.
If you feel led, please pray over this decision.
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Also, I have to take a ton of classes for Systems.
They are really interesting.
Random note:
I have finished 2 books in the last 2 months.
My 30 Days Under the Overpass by: Mike Yankoski
It was a devotional that I found cleaning Ruffalo.
It was wedged between the game shelves & the wall.
Just sayin, the devo kicked me in the teeth.
It was challenging & it made me think.
It was awesome. If you need a good devo, go crazy & do this one.
The second book is
Under the Overpass, by Mike Yankoski
It is the book the devo was based off of.
It is an autobiography of a guy who chose to be homeless for 5 months.
It made me cry way more then once.
It really opens your eyes to things that you can be doing,
As the body of Christ, that we have been neglecting.
Again, a kick in the teeth :]
Lastly, I've been reading The Irrisistible Revolution by Shane Claiborne.
I started it a couple months ago, but I didn't finish it.
So I'm starting completely over. Good stuff.
I feel super productive lately.
Life has been really fruitful.
Zephaniah 3:17 (New International Version)
17 The LORD your God is with you,
he is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you,
he will quiet you with his love,
he will rejoice over you with singing."
Zephaniah 3:17 (New American Standard Bible)
17"The LORD your God is in your midst,
A victorious warrior
He will exult over you with joy,
He will be quiet in His love,
He will rejoice over you with shouts of joy.
I feel at peace with life currently.
& that is a great feeling.
If you could pray for the school decision &
My friend Laura, who is currently on her way to Scotland for a mission trip,
That would be greatly appreciated.
You are loved, cherished & beautiful.
-Sammee
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