Run to You.

Turn look, look out and see
Do You see me? Cause I think I see You
I've been some other place
The wind that I chase
it all just leads back to You
Oh how I'm still, so still
It's so bearing, but still I ran
I knew You when I was young
But where am I now that I'm a man

Run to You, I will run, I will run
I will move right on through all these things that I have done
and You'll take me back, I don't know why
I wanna say I'll never do it again
But I can't, but I will try
-- The Rocket Summer


These have been the words of my heart lately.
Confused. Almost complacent.
There are so many things that are not going my way.
Which makes me want to tantrum better then any toddler you've ever seen.

I am still grateful for all I've been given, but I've been acting like a child lately.
Let's start with Bethany College of Missions. (Click on the link to get more info!)
I've been accepted. And I was confused on when to go.
January '11 or August '11.
I prayed about it, & got confirmation to leave in August.
Then I went for a visit.
To say the least, my heart broke.
It was incredible. It is very obviously where God wants me.
But God has me waiting for a waiting, and I need to accept that.
Not as a failure, or a roadblock. But, as a blessing.
Even the story of how I got to visit is crazy.
(It's too long to explain here though. :] If you'd like to know, contact me)
I also got to see one of my best friends in the universe. Laura Henny.
(Check her thoughts out on tumblr HERE!)
We went out after the college visit, to do ministry in downtown Minneapolis.
Yet again, I let myself get in the way. Things didn't go as expected.
Which I took as a failure initially. But Jesus ended up breaking through,
And we ended up getting to pray for some people & worshiping in the streets.
It was incredible. There is so much more from that day trip that I can't even explain.
Pictures on the way there, while we were there, & back. :]






















































I've been working on my discipline.
Something I'm not notorious for in any sense.
I am trying to stay in the Word daily.
As well as exercising daily.
I have not exceeded in either yet.
But, I am really trusting God that He will put these on my heart.
For my emotional, physical, and spiritual health.
We'll see how that turns out.
I'll keep you posted.

I have been sick since last Friday also.
I went to the doc, and she gave me some meds,
And told me to rest for two days.
I also had a friend pray for me.
I feel like I may be on the mend, which is exciting.
But, I had to miss two shifts at work *short shifts thankfully*.
I feel like God needed my attention.
He got it. :]
I love it when he does that.
It's funny how he uses things like illness to call us out.

The last thing...
On the way to Minneapolis,
Shelly & I both felt compelled to protest Westboro Baptist Chuch @ UNI.
Check out the event >!HERE!>












God did redeem the night, though.
I ended up going to BASIC on campus w/ my dear friend Haley.
It ended up being incredible.

"The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forske you. Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged." Deut. 31:8

"For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him." John 3:17

Love ya'll!